have you ever had one of those terribly depressing goodbye hugs? when you think that it will be your last time hugging that person..theyre leaving, and there is not a thing you can do about it. you might see them again, maybe. but this is a real goodbye.
my last day of school was yesterday. im in seventh grade and my friend is in eighth. so hes leaving for high school.
after my last exam, i was in the hallway and i just started tearing up when i had tried so hard not to. one of my favorite teachers told us he was leaving to teach at a high school. others cried, while i did everything i could to keep it in. he gave us our last lecture kind of speech thing, which he did a lot. so after not crying in class, i let it out in the hallway. my best friend tried comforting me but it didnt help much. we went straight to the cafeteria to wait for our bus, and thats when i saw him, my friend in eighth grade. i ran over to him and hugged him tightly as i sobbed. ‘goodbye’ he said. i couldnt say it back. that would have been too much. i just went back to my seat. i sat there with my two other best friends. they watched as i cried, as i tried wiping away my tears. i feel sorry that they had to watch me act like that, it must have been depressing. they called his bus..i burst into tears again. it was really happening, he was leaving.. we all sat in silence. a little while after…our teacher comes in. gosh i didnt think i had any more tears in me. i didnt get up to say bye to him again, i wouldnt want to cry in front of him when all he saw of me was happiness and smartness and greatness. some other people went up to him though. after he left my bus still wasnt there. i got up to say goodbye to a couple more of my friends, and they noticed my eyes. those were okay hugs because id see them soon enough.
but that one hug. we stood together and no one else mattered. not to me anyway. he was so nice to me. he was like a big brother, kind of. but not really because i was in love with him for a while. we had been good friends the whole year though. so his leaving was breaking my heart. hes taller than me, by a lot, so it was so perfect. i guess i was crying into his chest.. our arms completely wrapped around each other. the last hug. the last goodbye. the last time i would really ever see him..
have you every had one of those hugs.